Music makes me lose control.

P.S: I really enjoy music, and it soothes me. Any music suggestions are greatly appreciated!

You've come to this, you were once a liar.

Well, my initial reasoning for this blog was to let out my negative feelings and whine. I suffer from severe depression and I feel better when I let things out. However, I just realized something epic. What if I try and write this in a way that will pep me up? You know, help myself search for the brighter side of life that's become so distant and cold. I don't know why this euphoric idea just appeared in my head, but I have this gut feeling it'll help me not only express my feelings, but maybe it'll help me get better. Getting better is something I've yearned for dearly in the past three years. It just dawned on me though, that I never really tried. In reality, you can't just hope for things, you have to work for something you want. I'm sure there will be several occasions where all I write is depressing things about myself, but for the most part, I want my fingers to type the actuality of my world that my mind is so foolishly missing. I'm not always going to be like this. I'm going to get past this darkness and find my sunshine. Deep down, I know it still exists somewhere inside of me, and now, I'll do anything to get to it.